It may seem silly to cry from reading a blog post about animals but Mellisa’s simply touched that cord…
I remember the dogs and cats that aren’t here anymore, some of old age, some from car accidents etc. And I have a lot of GoodByes that I can’t even say, even now.
I just don’t wanna say that to them even though I know they are gone. I simply love them too much still and I am selfish too…That simply makes me not want to let them go.
I know nobody else will remember them, even I started to forget how they looked, what they liked, why they meant so much but I still want to hold on to them, I don’t want to part ways!
I’m sorry to you all but, as much as I try, I can’t refuse to accept that you aren’t here anymore, that I’ll never see you stretching when you’re waking up or running around. I can’t accept that I can’t look at or hug you either because I’m sad or I’m just trying to tell you all ”I love you”.
Would you ever be able to forgive me? I don’t even care that I can’t forgive myself for that. I should let you rest in peace and not disturb you and I admit, I loved some of you more than the others and I didn’t know how to appreciate you…
Some of you died from my own foolishness! I can’t bear that but I don’t want to not bear that either. I have no idea what I want anymore besides, probably, your immortality outside my heart and head.
I know I promised Alastair to reblog a comment to his post about the damage we do to animals and I wanted to write one too. I apologize for not being able to write one until now.
I want to make a change about how the world treats the animals but, as much as I care for them, I’m just not strong enough. I got my own wounds to still salt and my current animals future to worry about. I really wish I could but I simply can’t be stronger when I’m not. I admit to that.